This pill is also a anticonvulcent pill used for epilisey as well as for bipolar. It’s something that I have never encountered. I take two before bedtime and it helps me sleep pretty well. I wake up to an adrenaline type feeling. Meaning my heart feels like it’s racing or I’m on speed, but at the same time I’m really calm. I get right to work on my eBay. You have to make sure you eat first thing in the morning before you can take your 1 pill in the morning. I don’t like to take it too late – this pill puts you through some stages before it mellows out. First, you fill high and dizzy and you stumble a bit so don’t drive. Then it finally subsides and your okay. When I first took it I was running into everything. I didn’t drive for the first week taking it. Now, it could be different for someone else. A lot of the side effects are right on. My teeth bled for a while and sometimes I’d get a headache. I just took an aspirin. You do get tired so I would take a nap in the afternoon where I didn’t use to – I hated naps.
Now, when I get upset or mad about something this pill starts acting. It’s not called a mood stabilizer for nothing. I don’t get out of control, because I spending too much time trying to figure out what this pill is going to do. Mania is my culprit. I can go spinning and I have a terrible temper. That’s an Irish-Indian Temper. I take the lorazepam0r.5 mg and I’m just fine. I have been going through depression. I have no money – that’s a great reason to be depressed. I still believe at times that people are talking about me. Plus, I feel that my parents are treating me like I don’t belong here. But after a while it goes away where before I would let it drive me crazy.
Someone mentioned to me earlier they thought Bipolar was two personalities. I use to think so too. One day I would be someone and the next I could be someone else. Really meaning my moods. Their like a roller coaster. I don’t drink anymore and if I did you could get the personality disorders. Bipolar people drink to make the voices go away. I had too many voice committees going off in my head. Do this do that. What do I do?!?
When I was younger I liked being someone else because I felt brave. Drinking and bipolar don’t go hand in hand. But I got myself in a lot of trouble. I woke up one morning and had no idea where or who I was with. It seemed that I thought I had to be with a man to be anything. I always was trying to make them happy not me. I gave too much if you know what I mean. Today. now that I have admitted I have bipolar I now know what the problem was. I drank and gave it up too much. A man wasn’t going to care for me being like that and now I know why. I always chose men that were abusive and controlling.
Well I’m finding myself rambling. At least I’m only doing one thing instead of trying to do 4 or 5 things at a once and never completing a darn thing.
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