I’m having a fall out. If I lived on the second or third floor I would probably jump. I just want it to go away.
I couldn’t catch my breath. I was dizzy and unbalanced, sweating, anxiety, crawling out of my skin – this is what I’m feeling at this moment. The trigger was a lot of chatter that felt like it was drilling a hole in my brain. I felt like I had the flu with the body aches. I was totally depressed, irritable, angry and just wanted to be left alone.
I’ve just got back from having a sonogram at the hospital on my liver. It was so much fun! NOT! In fact, it hurt. That told me it wasn’t good news. So I’m thrilled.
The doctor called me and said the sonograms pictures showed something was going on. It seems my liver and my kidney are having problems. I told the doctor that I wasn’t felling well, and was told if I got worse I should go the emergency room.
I have Hepatitis C and they are checking for cancer, cysts, and cirrhosis. The scene in the sonograms did not look promising. After the tests it’s like the sonograms stirred up some trouble. The pain is severe, and I feel like I suddenly have the flu. I don’t understand.
Having bipolar and going through this Hepatitis testing is very stressful on me. I just had to hibernate in my room today. I didn’t feel like talking to any one.
If only someone could understand how I’m feeling. Do you?