Abandoned and Lonely – this is how I feel today. Friday I felt was high on life. I went out for the first time in 3 years and had a great time! Today I feel lonely and abandoned. 😦
I always feel like I’ve said something wrong and I’ll never hear from that person again. And sometimes I am right. I feel are looking at me and talking about me. “Look – she’s bipolar – she’s crazy. But I’m not! I just have a hard time sorting things out. Sometimes I just don’t know who I am.
I’ve been on Lithium for 3 years and have been on several other medications trying to see if it’s a fit with Lithium. I’ve tried Prozac, Celexa, Zoloft, Effexor and now Lamical. There’s some more drugs in there some where just can remember them. Some of them made me crazy.
I just wish I didn’t feel like nobody loves me or afraid to come see me – I might say something they don’t like. I try very hard to behave myself without giving advice they don’t want.
I’ve had one break through and that’s writing in my blog. I haven’t been here for a long time. I just couldn’t seem to pick up my laptop and write. I’ve had brain fog and down right tired.
Today, I just feel so bad I want to crazy – I’m so tired of this feeling and bipolar.
I’m going to write about how I got here what I’ve been through.
- Bipolar: Gone Missing (journalingfortherapy.wordpress.com)