I’ve been feeling I have been creating scenarios in my mind that are there or not be there. My problem is when I send someone an email or text message I expect a response back soon. If I didn’t email or text it wouldn’t have been important. That’s how I feel. You would think they (MEN) would know it to. I have a big show coming up and my guy friend that I’ve had an around for a wild hasn’t been very nice. He hasn’t responded to any emails since Thursday. My questions – are you coming over to help me out with my hanger, mats, etc? (We have to deliver our art work Tuesday.) Are we going to the reception together or should I get someone else to take me?
I haven’t heard a word! So, I’m getting anxious, as usual, and just about to take on matters myself. Plus, I’m thinking of asking someone else to go as my escort to this event.
Monday, tomorrow, is the only day for preparation and I need some things. I don’t have a car so I’m going to bus it tomorrow to take care of things, because I can depend on anyone.
These are always my thoughts – I can’t depend on anyone. I never have. I’ve been let down so much that I can’t trust anyone. When they ask why I went ahead on my own to take care of things I just say – I can’t depend on you and that usually ends that relationship. I’m the most impatient person on this earth! It kills me!
Are these bipolar ways or am I being normal.
My guy friend, photographer, has been a good teacher, friend, and sometimes lover up until now. He took me out for my birthday, which no on else planned. He also wanted to stay the night. I was hesitant. But I’m a 60 year old lonely woman. Now, I’m feeling like a used woman. I don’t know! I’m just so damn confused. This is why I don’t get involved. I don’t know how to do anything except take pictures.
Thanks for listening.
- Paranoia in Bipolar Disorder (everydayhealth.com)