Yesterday, and today, I feel like I have no friends. Like everyone has abandoned me. Did I do something wrong? Am I imagining it?
I see the people I know having all kinds of fun. I see my guy friend having fun with the girls in our photography group without me. I don’t know what this is all about, but I’m feeling really left out and alone. It may be nothing, but I don’t like this gut terrifying feeling I am having.
The one thing that I haven’t done in a long time I’m doing now. Drinking. It’s my way of curbing the hurt I’m feeling. I don’t like feeling this way, not a bit. I can’t sleep and I obsess. So what do I do?
My week – went to the beach by myself, ate at my favorite restaurant by myself, went to the beach for the sunset by myself and tonight I’m all alone wishing I wasn’t.
So tell me is it this bipolar and my obsessive imagination? I just wish for once my life was satisfying and fulfilled! Just once. I need a friend.