I finally got medication for my ADHD that I’ve had when I was in school since 1970. It’s amazing that a doctor who I’ve been visiting for my bipolar finally said I needed treatment for ADHD. I asked my parents why I was never treated for ADHD and my mom told told me there was so such thing as ADHD back in the 70’s. I remember being very frustrated, because I couldn’t figure out Math or English. I was great in biology and gym and that was it. I started having the attitude that if I just pass I’d be happy. I started to hate school and wished I never had to go back. Why not just not quit?
I did graduate by a slight grade. I never went to college, because I had to do math all over again but first I would need to take TASP, and knew I would fail. However, I did take photojournalism, writing and basic photography and did pretty well. I couldn’t go any further until I took the TASP so I never went to college.
I did have some really great jobs in my past – major advertising agency, national magazine, and an international makeup company. But for some reason things started getting worse as I got older. I’d get confused easily, organization was difficult, misplace things, forget things, and get angry easy. My behavior was defensive and didn’t like people telling me I did something wrong. I would become irritated and angry. I was always a top-notch administrative assistant – when someone would tell me I did something wrong the world would end.
It got to the point with my Bipolar and my ADHD I could no longer maintain a job.. So what was I to do? I decided to look into social security disability. I was checked out and was decided I could no longer work. And I can’t! I tried it – if I tried to use a cash register I would have a panic attack. If I tried to use a phone with too many lines – I would have a panic attack. Not only was it ADHD – I had Bipolar as well including a chronic terminal disease.
My doctor prescribed Adderall and I took the dosage she gave me, which was one in the morning and 1/2 at 1pm. I did that for a week and went crazy! It was like being on speed like I took back in the 70’s! I hated it. I almost chewed my tongue off! Also, I found myself staying up still 3 or 4 in the morning. I did get a lot of work done, however, I felt like crap the next day. I decided to stop for a day and start over and just take a quarter in the morning and 1/4 around 1pm. If you take the second one later than that 1pm you might have a hard time going to sleep.
The 1/4 dosage worked and I feel so much better. I can focus and I can actually watch a full movie without loosing my focus. I haven’t read a book in a long time and I haven’t felt like cleaning my house plus I was totally disorganized.
If you feel that you have any of the above symptoms please check them out before it gets later in years – it could save a lot of hardship and pain.