For the last six months I’ve had feelings of anger and frustration that are so deep it makes me sick. I feel like people use me and that’s causes anger. I feel like people don’t care if I live or die. I have no friends. I feel like I need gratification. I feel useless and not needed.
The only friends I have are on Facebook. Are they truly friends? No one calls me or asks to go out to dinner with the girls. I feel like they don’t want to be around me. I’ve lived here for about 3 years and can’t development close friendships. Everyone seems to have their own private life. It’s hard to pick up female relationships since they are already in their female group. And as far as men I’m not comfortable around them. The only time someone is a friend is when they want something like a photography shoot per sie. They want something for free and that tics me off.
I’ve started distancing myself from people , because I don’t want to deal with the bad emotions I feel.- I can’t talk to them about Bipolar because they’ll runaway. I’m crazy they think. I haven’t been in a true loving relation since I was 24, now 61. I didn’t want to endure anymore pain in my life. So I’m alone.