When I get these gut feelings that’s telling me not to do something I’ve learned to listen to it. I remember when I was going through
hard times before I finally went on medications, I was doing stupid things and making crazy decisions.
I started researching why I was doing the things I’m doing, i.e. drinking, constantly dropping items, going places I shouldn’t, participating in activities that were no good for me. Making decisions is another problem I have. I’d rather someone else make decisions or even shop for me.
I’ve pick the wrong guys all my life – if I’d listen to my intuition I would have never gotten myself in those situations. Recently, I was supposed to go to an event that was 1 hour away down a long country road. That road is dark and scary, especially, when I can’t see in the dark. I had gone to rehearsal one night and coming home I was so terrified. The darkness engulfed me to the point of being panic-stricken. My hands were so red from gripping the steering wheel, and I ran off the road at some point.
My intuition was telling me not to go the event. It was a gut-wrenching feeling so I decided not to go. I feared that something would happen if I had gone. I was sad I didn’t go to the event, but I felt a lot safer. I’m hoping my guardian angel has returned.