I truly believe while I was on Lithium it took my soul from me. I had no emotions – I didn’t cry and I was a cold inside. Things that I use to be passionate about were gone.
I’ve been off Lithium for a month now and I feel like a real person again. Now, I cry when I watch a feel good movie, and laugh when something is funny. It’s good to feel that again. My anxiety level isn’t as high, but I still get it occasionally, but not as bad.
in 1999, I was diagnosed with bipolar/manic depression. Why? I attempted suicide and drank too much. Why? Sometimes we can only handle so much that we just break down. I found my boyfriend of 5 years in bed with a girl 20 years younger, and my son informed me he was going in the army for 6 years. That was enough to send me over the edge
I started binge drinking and then I fell into major depression, which I call “Major Depressive Disorder”. This is a variety of different moods. I was so depressed and felt like I had nothing left in the world. I felt like everyone leaves me.
Is bipolar the name to give to someone who is very depressed. I’ve seen a really bad bipolar case and I was nothing like that. If anything I’m manic. I can get on a high same as hyper which I’ve had all my life but couldn’t that have been my ADHD? Who knows.