I have been experiencing a lot of physical problems, but maybe it’s all in my head. That’s the way the doctors make me feel when I tell them about my issues.
I’ve been experiencing headaches, dizziness, fading out, falling, unbalanced, shortness of breath, heart beating rapidly, and my hip-joint pain. Did I mentioned Vertigo? The doctors just say it’s the medication I take. That’s good so why do you give them to me?
It just seems that doctors don’t care anymore. Or, may since I’m a senior they think it’s all in my head. Could it be? Sometimes I think it is, but I know me better then they do. I’m just about to give up on doctors. I’m tired of them making me feel worse before I got to the appointment. It’s a horrible feeling when there’s no one listening or willing to help.
At a bad time in my life, I was hinting to family and friends about the way I was feeling – hurt, lonely and depressed. I lost my long relationship and my son went in the army for 6 years. I was scared and alone. They didn’t hear me. I started binge drinking and attempted suicide. I just didn’t care anymore. I went to rehab for 6 weeks and it was the worse experience I ever had. All they do is drug you up so you want cause any trouble.
5 years ago I stopped drinking and smoking – cold turkey. Looking back, I now know it was a God thing. He intervened and saved me. That’s one of the things I have found good in my life is finding God again. Although, I looked to him in the past, I never really felt he heard me. Now I do. Besides the the physical ailments. My soul is feeling good.
We should understand that God’s purpose for you will be revealed to you overtime. God will reveal to you in his own time and place. Be looking for him.