Journaling and Listening to your Intuition

“The more light you allow within you, the brighter the world you live in will be.
~Shakti Gawain

I was 17 years old.  I wrote my thoughts, poetry, and music. . When I went back and read my journals they were depressing.  I was a very depressed and lonely person, and It was mostly about relationships. After reading my past journals they helped me to grow and not make the same mistakes now as I did then. By recording your thoughts you’ll have new insights on your moods and behavior.  

Journaling can help solve a problem and improve your mental health.  It will clear your thoughts of all that chatter going on in your mind.

In addition, writing in a journal is an effective tool for use in the healing process. It  will improve your outlook on life and, and help your insight on life become clearer.

Start writing about where you are in life.  How is it?  Did you have a good day?  Or, how do you feel today?  Describe your living situation, your work, and your relationships.  What could you do to make your daily life less stressful.

Ever tried free writing? Put your pen to the paper and write whatever comes to your mind. Don’t stop writing and don’t worry about the grammar, punctuation, or spelling. You can edit later.

Take selfie’s with your iPhone with a smile and make different expressions. Learn to love and accept yourself, and like who you are today. The world we live in is a magical and a mysterious place. Write what you see around you. Go on a road trip and take pictures and write about what you see.

An important tool to lean is your intuition.  We all have intuition and you’ll need to learn how to listen to it.   What does intuition mean?

“The ability to understand something immediately,
without the need for conscious reasoning.
 “Allow our intuition to guide us”
 
Intuition is magical like ESP. We all have it just need to learn how to use it.  To me it’s my higher power whispering in my ears trying to help me.  Let’s say you have a tendency of putting your drink on the edge of the table. But your thoughts are telling you not to put the glass there. Then later in the evening you get up not thinking of the glass on the table, and you knock it off.  Red wine everywhere!  Or, you start to walk to your car, but your inner thoughts or intuition is telling you to check and make sure you locked your door. But, you ignore it. Latter, you come home and the door was unlocked. You ask yourself, “Why, didn’t I listen to myself!”
You’ll be amazed how different your daily life will be if you just listen to your thoughts or intuition.
Now, start writing.
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Acceptance

Rose-antiquesigThere are many things that happen in our life that aren’t fair – illness, or injury.  Accepting these situations means focusing your strength and energy on letting go of yourself to God, and he’ll see you through the hard times,  Or let the anger, frustration, sadness and self-pity destroy you.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart

and lean not on your own understanding;

in all your ways acknowledge him,

and he will make your paths straight.

–Proverbs 3:5-6

DOCTORS, THANK GOODNESS FOR GOD

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THE BAD

I have been experiencing a lot of physical problems, but maybe it’s all in my head.  That’s the way the doctors make me feel when I tell them about my issues.

I’ve been experiencing headaches, dizziness, fading out, falling, unbalanced, shortness of breath, heart beating rapidly, and my hip-joint pain. Did I mentioned Vertigo? The doctors just say it’s the medication I take. That’s good so why do you give them to me?

It just seems that doctors don’t care anymore.  Or, may since I’m a senior they think it’s all in my head. Could it be? Sometimes I think it is, but I know me better then they do.  I’m just about to give up on doctors. I’m tired of them making me feel worse before I got to the appointment.  It’s a horrible feeling when there’s no one listening or willing to help.

At a bad time in my life, I was hinting to family and friends about the way I was feeling – hurt, lonely and depressed.  I lost my long relationship and my son went in the army for 6 years.  I was scared and alone. They didn’t hear me.  I started binge drinking and attempted suicide.  I just didn’t care anymore.  I went to rehab for 6 weeks and it  was the worse experience I ever had.  All they do is drug you up so you want cause any trouble.

THE GOOD

5 years ago I stopped drinking and smoking – cold turkey.  Looking back, I now know it was a God thing. He intervened and saved me. That’s one of the  things I have found good in my life is finding God again.  Although, I looked to him in the past, I never really felt he heard me.  Now I do.  Besides the the physical ailments.  My soul is feeling good.

We should understand that God’s purpose for you will be revealed to you overtime.  God will reveal to you in his own time and place.  Be looking for him.

Now Cataracts? I must be getting old!

cataracts12I’m having problems with my eyesight involving, blurred vision, lines, black dots, night blindness, headaches, eye pain, and having difficulty watching TV.  Additionally, light is really hard on me – TV, Computer, and the Sun.  An appointment to see an eye doctor.

Well, I have cataracts, along with dry eye syndrome. I’ll need to drink more water and less caffeine. That means my two cups of coffee will have to go. I was prescribed drops called “Refresh Advance”, for dry eyes, and for night-time, “Refresh PM“, same thing but a gel you rub on the inside of your eyelids. If a doctor prescribes a $200 medication, go for Refresh first.  I’ll evidentially need surgery.

Signs and symptoms of cataracts include:

  • Clouded, blurred or dim vision
  • Increasing difficulty with vision at night
  • Sensitivity to light and glare
  • Seeing “halos” around lights
  • Frequent changes in eyeglass or contact lens prescription
  • Fading or yellowing of colors
  • Double vision in a single eye

At first, the cloudiness in your vision caused by a cataract may affect only a small part of the eye’s lens and you may be unaware of any vision loss. As the cataract grows larger, it clouds more of your lens and distorts the light passing through the lens. This may lead to signs and symptoms you’re more likely to notice.”

Now, this makes me feel really old. They say 50% of adults get cataracts between the ages 64-70 years old, and 70% get cataracts over 75 years old.

Forgiveness is My New Journey to Happiness

Vickie Hibler Photography "My New Journey"

Vickie Hibler Photography
“My New Journey”

I’ve been struggling for years to forget my past. i have had such angry and couldn’t trust anyone that I’ve never gotten into another relationship.

I wish I could have said a long time ago “Forgive him for he did not know what he was doing.” (Luke 23:35)  If I had forgiven, I would not have harbored so much anger and hatred for 37 years.  For years I didn’t have faith in God.  But things changed when I listen to my intuition and I knew it was him.

Forgiveness, takes more strength than I have. It’ll take God’s strength. I took his hand and something happened. I opened my heart up to him and let him in. I don’t feel that anger anymore.  I want to find love again.

I’m taking a new path to a new life’s journey.

Finding God Through Divine Intuition

DahilaI’ve been looking for him throughout my whole unlucky life. I went through domestic abuse, stalked, raped, alcoholism, and nearly committing suicide.  Not counting the near death experience, and hospitalized many times. I felt God was no where – even when I pray. I feel that I just wasn’t listening.

When I first felt HIM is when I picked up a book called “Divine intuition.”  I picked it up when I was at my lowest point..  When I was at the book store something leered me to the christian area and the first book I saw was “Divine Intuition.”  It was about opening your mind to god and listening to what it had to say. I knew times that something would tell me what to do and what I shouldn’t do. The shouldn’t do’s is what got me in trouble. For instance, did you ever say to yourself I should leave that glass of water there, but do, and later you knocked it off the table?  Well I did.

Later I realized that it was god speaking to me telling me it was not a good idea to lay the glass on the table at the edge.  I now listen very carefully to what my intuition tells me – if it tells me it’s not a good idea. This has helped me in every way where my mistakes aren’t as frequent.

Divine Intuition are thoughts you receive from God.

Night Terror in Adults

I'm Scared!

I’m Scared!

I haven’t written in a while for a number of reasons, but plan to catch up.  What I want to talk about is Night Terror in adults.

Lately, I’ve been having realistic nightmares or nightmares that are violent and seem so real.  Along with these nightmares I have bed wetting.  At 63 years old!   It’s been occurring a lot lately and I’m not sure why.   They some of the reasons are from medications, post traumatic stress syndrome, depression, anxiety, and guess what?  I have all of them.

Last night, I was having one of these night terrors and at the same time I was bed wetting.  The nightmare was so real.  I felt that someone had come in the house. I could hear some strange noise like growling or moaning.  I was struggling trying to move and I felt like I was frozen.  I struggled to run when it felt like someone jumped in bed with me.  I looked over me and it looked like someone was under the covers, along with this strange noise.   I finally was able to jump out of bed and I was falling all over the place.  I was able to grab the hallway door to keep from falling.  I had to pee so bad.  I stood in the doorway looking at my bed for more movement then realized there was nothing there. I went to the living room to check the front door and the door stopper was still in place.  So, no, no one came through the front door.

All my nightmares are sleep terrors.  Struggling and running.  Is the overactive bladder  causing the terrors, or are the terrors causing the overactive bladder?  I’ve had to resort to those diaper panties.

I’ve been having these night terror’s almost all my life.  When I was a child I  was a sleep-walker.  My mom found me at the front door grabbing the door knob.  I had real life nightmares about running from monsters, and seeing things that weren’t there.  To this day I think I really did see these things – witch flying across the moon, and someone grabbing my leg in a cemetery.  There was also a burly monster, and when I ran from him.

I was running so fast my feet lifted off the ground and I flew from rooftop to rooftop.  It was crazy.

I don’t know what to do because this is disturbing my life.  During the day I’m so tired and just want to sleep.  Could I have sleep apnea?  I know that at times I can’t catch my breath.  Sometimes I just stop breathing.

What do I do? Well first I placed a call to the sleep clinic to see if I need to have testing.  If you’ve had these problems I would love to hear from you.