Bipolar and Compulsive Buying

I hear a¬†knock on the door there the postman¬†handing me a package. don’t remember buying anything.¬† I opened and sure enough it’s something I bid on at eBay.¬† I just didn’t remember.¬† It’s when you purchase things and don’t remember. ¬†It’s been constant when I would get an email saying “Congratulations you have won!”¬†

I didn’t start having this problem until I moved from Dallas to North Carolina. ¬†I’ve been trying to wean myself off Effexor this horrible sick andepressant¬†pill.¬† I do believe it’s effecting my memory, blood pressure and now I’m having trouble with my high blood sugar.¬†¬†¬† I have no energy so anything I do is pretty much limited.

I went shopping with my daughter-in-law the other day.¬† She called me the next day to tell me I had left the package in the car.¬† I didn’t remember buying anything.¬† This is really scarring me.

I’ve always been a compulsive buyer but I had learned to control it, and I remember buying it.¬† Then I got on this medication Effexor, and it seems that my whole body has go wacko!¬†¬†¬†Aches, pains, headaches, nausea and other side effects.

The other day I went to the doctor and I had left my purse at home with my cell phone and medicare card.¬† My daughter gave me her number to call her when I was through.¬†¬† I got a load of blood tests, which was over a week a go and have not heard the results!¬† Sorry it ticks me off when I don’t hear from doctors.¬† Anyway, when I was leaving I realized again that I did not have my purse and I did not remember anyone’s phone number, and I had lost the one Sade had given me.¬† I felt so lost, so old, and so helpless.¬† I hated that feeling.¬† It got to be dark and my son finally drove up.¬† I was beginning to feel like they had forgotten me.¬† I was about ready to get in cab.

So what’s the answer to this compulsive buying¬†and the memory problem.¬† Maybe my blood results¬†will tell.¬†¬†Hey! where’s the doctor!¬† Doctors aren’t like they use to me.¬† I had some great doctors who had very caring bedside manners.¬† Not anymore.¬† Now, their rushing you through like cattle getting your blood test and scheduling you a month latter. What if there’s an issue that needs to be tended to.¬† I guess go to the emergency room 911 – yea they need business.