Been through a lot since my last writing. I’m sorry, but my hands cramp up but I’ll do what I can.
I’m 66 and feel I’m too young to have all these problems —-Parkinsons-disease, fibromyalgia, osteoporosis, Arthritis, Cervical and lower back herniated disc. With all these problems I never know which disease or pain to treat.
I’e done what I can like physical therapy to help balance, yoga, and walking. Medicine and exercise is only temporary if you don’t keep it up. And that’s hard to do when your in pain. But I’ve got to do it. My life just seems to be pasting by quickly.
I’m alone and have no help. When I fall there’s no one to pick me up. I don’ just fall. I fall over furniture and break beautiful vases. Fall off the bed and knock over night stand. I just fall. I never know when it’ll happen. All I can do is hold on to life and hope.
I’ll keep designing and making jewelry and painting. As long as I have inspiration and can create I’m alive.
My parents feel I had ADHD when I was young and that was in the early 60’s through high school and most of my life. However, back in those days they didn’t know what ADHD was. We just know I had a learning problem. I couldn’t focus, hyper and my attention span was short. I couldn’t go to college because I could never past the TASP.
Today I feel much smarter. I google everything I don’t understand like definitions. What is certain lingo on photography, etc. However, the ADHD is still there. I had some testing done and it seems it has gotten worse in age. Things are so much harder. Things I use to know I don’t know. Like making a square knot. I can be sitting at a red light and go off in space then wonder where I am. The only time I’m in focus is photography. I couldn’t buy one of those Expensive Nikon or Canon cameras with all that computer jigs on it. Too much trouble. I just want to take a good picture, with great composition and lighting.
I have to deal with ADHD everyday – what day is it, where is my keys, I know I put it there, etc. I hate it. I don’t drive as much as requested by the doctors. My car can sit parked for days. I just do a lot of walking. I do attend to be anti-social.
I have to deal with my life with no help from anyone as far as support. I’ve gotten by since the 70’s, living alone. I’ve had to figure things out myself and it’s hard but it makes me stronger. I actually feel smarter today because I’m a very curious person, a need to know person. I google everything. I can’t read a book but I can google. Hum…
Don’t give up on life. Pick a hobby and stick with it. Do the best you can that’s all you can do.