It’s now December 18, 2010 and I’ve been weaning myself off Effexor for over a month and my milligrams are down to 30 mg. For the first two-three weeks it wasn’t so much fun. There’s was a pattern of its effects it been time released.
My mornings start with a cup of coffee, checking my blood sugar, and taking my Bipolar, high blood pressure, antidepressants, including Effexor. After about 2 hours taking Effexor I would get nauseous, along with a sudden feeling of fatigue. Where ever I was at the time, I would have to stop and take time out and then after a while, I would try to get home. Once home I’d hit the bed an sleep for a few hours. It seemed the medicine would kick in again in the evening, but this time with a spurt of energy sometimes with anxiety. I would stay up until late – sometimes 3 or 4am. I would have to take a anxiety pill, Lorespam. I hated it.
Each week I would take a granule out lowering the dosage. Today, I’m at 30 mg and I think that’s where I’ll stay. When I tried to go lower I would have memory problems, confusion, etc. In fact, I felt like my bipolar was worse. My memory is getting worse, but I’m not sure from what. I have parents, grandparents, Aunts, and Uncles who all had Alzheimer’s/Demenaiaa. When you have so many issues going on it’s hard to single out what disease is causing the problem. That is so frustrating to me.
I’ll keep trying to make this antidepressant work, because it does work you just have to find the right dosage. I think if I went off of it completely it would be a bad idea. Maybe one day. I’ve hard some horror stories and I don’t want to b e one of them. So, I’ll continue counting out the tiny beads and take my dosage, but I’ll save the leftovers just in case. I don’t have insurance and this medicine is expensive.
Why do we need to have pills to function our lives? I’m so tired of it! My genetics have played a role in most of my illnesses and disease. Something that I’ll take with me to my grave, but that won’t be soon. I still have a lot of life in me to play with my grand children who are an important factor in my life. I’ll keep trying to live and not lay down to die.
I’ve been on Lithium for Bipolar/Manic Depression for over 2 years now and have tried many other combinations for depression. I set down with my doctor and told her that I don’t think there’s any thing that can help me. I can’t take certain medications because of my hepatitis. I can’t even take pain pills. The doc told me about Effexor XR, and it was not only good for depression, but also for ADHD. I thought WOW two in one so I told her to stock me up.
I’ve been on Effexor now for over two months. I was doing okay and was thrilled that I had a little more energy. The only problem is since it’s time release most of my energy comes in the evening the morning and right now it’s 1:00 am and I’m wide awake. This is when I do my writing.
The side effects have been creeping up on me. My memory has been getting really bad and I’m only 58. My mom at 84 – she tells me too! Yesterday, I was trying to prepare my product (eBay) to be shipped out. I had about 10 shipping labels and boxes to prepare. I couldn’t remember if I printed this label or that label, what product went with what shipping label. I felt like screaming. I felt my anger rising and I wanted to hit and scream at someone. I started the product at 9:00am in the morning and didn’t get finished until 1:30pm when it normally only takes me about two hours. I had to double-check everything and found that I had printed three labels for the same person then two for another. I had to void labels and submit for refunds. This had never happened this bad.
I’m leaving stores without my merchandise. Forgetting to pay bills. I’m even seeing shadows and hearing voices. I’m literally more crazy now then before I took this darn pill. I’ve been reading about other womrn who are trying to get off this crazy pill and it’s not easy. The withdrawal effects can be deadly. I’d rather be the way I was before I was taking this pill and that’s not feeling this way. I’m so afraid of what will happen next. I have enough problems with my hepatitis/cirrhosis, diabetes, high blood pressure and I’ll stop there.
I asked the doctor about the side effects of Effexor, and she said “I haven’t heard anything bad about it.” I took her at her word. Never again.
Starting in the morning, I’m tapering back. I heard if you take half the capsule which makes it 37.5 mg, and then take a grain out every week you should be okay. But, everyone is different. They say not do anything without the doctors knowledge. Well it was the doctor who got me into this mess.
I’ll be writing about my journey. Please feel free to write me and let me know your story. (Please don’t try this at home.)