Do you ever feel like your mind is playing games with you? Do you think people are talking about you behind your back? How about lying to you? Blatantly, I don’t trust anyone.
Presently, I’m talking to my therapist that I do trust, because I’m paying her, to help me with these mind games. I lost all my confidence in life because I’ve never actually been loved by anyone that truly cares for me. Of course, my immediate family and child do. My marriage was a shamble and my relationships were abusive. I don’t trust anything someone tells me.. I feel like I’m disliked when I’m not. It’s a miserable world when everyday I feel this way. I would like a relationship with a man. But how if I don’t believe him or trust him? If I’m not around people I don’t have to worry what people think or say or how to act. Is this anti-social?
I’m no fearful of being hurt I don’t allow myself to let someone in my heart. I protect myself by not putting myself out there. When I meet a man I try to think of everything that can be wrong with him – then I want like him.
My mind is keeping me from being in a loving relationship with someone. My mind is causing issues with my friends and family. Could this be the bipolar causing my problems. Will I ever stop feeling this way. How to I get confidence again.