Best of My Life New Year 2011

My New Year started off really great.¬† I had my family with me – son, daughter-in-law and two grand children.¬†This is new for me because I have been alone most of my life.¬† Alone on holidays, birthdays,¬†mother’s days, alone in a single room suffering from bipolar and alcoholism.¬† Now,¬†God has given me a second chance,¬†and now I’ll get it all.

It’s been a long time since I’ve been out on New Years Eve.¬† I use to sit on the corner of my red stained couch, fouled smell smokey apartment and drink and usually I was passed out before midnight.¬† I didn’t go out only to th grocery and liquor store.¬† No relationships of any kind.¬† No one every came to see me.¬† I was alone and no one knew what I was going through.¬† I just knew I was in pain.

Now, for the time in years I went out on New Years¬†Eve.¬† The evening couldn’t have¬†been more perfect.¬†I was with my son, daughter-in-law, and my loving¬† grand children. We went out to eat to a really fun place across from the beach.¬†¬†Afterwards, we¬†walked along the boardwalk, and beach.¬† It was absolutely beautiful!¬†¬† The weather had cleared up allowing for the perfect evening. The boardwalk was lit up with Christmas lights and music¬†transposing a very festive atmosphere.¬† We could hear the sound of the waves hitting the sandy banks. When you looked up¬†the sky was a glowing dark midnight blue with the brightest stars you have ever seen.¬† In fact, it’s the first time I’ve seen the Big Dipper, planets and stars in a long time. There was one star that stood out from the rest.¬†¬†The¬†star was the largest and brightest¬†and¬†was pulsating as if it was alive.¬† I don’t know why – I felt a calm come all over me. I knew who it was. I just smiled and nodded and said thank you. ūüôā