It seems like I’ve had depression since I was in high school. I have journals where I wrote about feelings of loneliness and depression. “Sadness because one has no friends or family closeness. I could trigger easily with anger.
I have ADHD , and that was difficult because in school trying to learn math and English. I couldn’t even take college courses, because I feared taking the Tasp Test, when I lived in Texas. Instead , my first job out of school was a power company. I was always good at typing, and I was creative. But English (grammar), and Math was not my forte.
The following is some research on depression including my own discussions.
Some people with major depression experience the symptoms of depression only once in their life. Others experience frequent relapses and recurrences. (I experience it from triggers). Triggers were like feeling alone,lines
Why am I depressed?
no one cares, family problems, my life is going no where. it’s important to pay attention to your feelings in order to catch possible signs of a relapse. Some people recognize the signs and some can’t, like me.
If you’re feeling down because of a specific event, such as losing a job or the breakup of a relationship, it could be normal and temporary sadness. If you feel sad, despairing, teary, or “empty” every day for more than two weeks and it’s interfering with other aspects of your life, it may be clinical depression.
Breaking Plans, Withdrawing Socially
I always complain that I have no friends, bored, or tired. When I do make plans with someone I end up calling and cancel the event. I just want to stay home alone.
A change in your sleeping habit such as insomnia — trouble falling or staying asleep — could be a sign of depression. It can cause or aggravate other symptoms that may also indicate depression, such as fatigue. If you regularly lie awake at night with your mind racing or sleep too much to avoid getting out of bed, speak to your doctor. If your sleep problems are a symptom of depression relapse, medication and talk therapy may help.
I have terrible nightmares. I wake myself up talking in my sleep and find myself running lying down and fighting off someone. They are violent. I feel this comes from domestic abuse and rape. But why is it happening after all these years.
Certain things make me snap. I constantly bicker with family, because I don’t feel anyone cares. Where I used to be easygoing, you now have violent outbursts. Depression can show itself in irritability and anger. When I get angry I have a sharp tongue.
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I started therapy this morning and I was really excited about it. I never had the right kind of therapy and this is called incognitive therapy. I’m not sure if I’m saying it right. It’s too help understand the bipolar and it’s triggers.
Today I’m now and don’t feel well. I just don’t feel right and I’m very tired. I’ll have to get back to my writing later.