When my son told me almost a year ago that had fallen in a deep dark black hole, and hoped he can crawl of it. He said he wouldn’t be talking to me till he found his way out. Its been over a year and i still haven’t talked to him.
My son enlisted in the army when he got out of high school. I was not happy for my only child to go in the army for 6 years. He was first stationed in Fort Bliss. After a couple years he requested a transfer and went to Germany. At first it was fun. But the fun stopped and war started. It was in Bosnia and Afghanistan.
He saw terrible things. He didn’t tell me much but he did say they were walking through a river in Bosnia and was having to dodge dead bodies even children. He was in a camp next to the Afghanistan border. A bomb blasted a tent near my son’s own tent. Several were killed.
Needless to say I was scared. I started having terrible nightmares. He would call me when he could. When i didn’t hear from him I was terrified.
The day came after 6 long years. He was coming home. I was so relieved and he was certainly happy to be home safe.
He was 18 years old when he left and he came back when he was 24 years old. I lost a lot of time watching him grow and it was so painful.
Now he’s married with 4 children and leading a successful life.
Over the last 4 years i started seeing changes in him. He would get aggravated easily lose his temper wasn’t patient especially with me. I started to see somebody I didn’t know. Then one day he told me he was leaving me. He was in black hole he was talking about.
My son has been experiencing paranoid symptoms he went out and bought for guns at 8 security cameras to put around his house. There’s a war is coming and he’s preparing for it. It scares me so much.
With all the hate and violence, crime and terrorism happening in the world, people carrying guns and shooting people. Starting fires and bombs why not think there’s going to be a war. All this because of political warfare.
“Political warfare is the use of political means to compel an opponent to do one’s will, based on hostile intent. … Political war may be combined with violence, economic pressure, subversion, and diplomacy, but its chief aspect is “the use of words, images and ideas”.
The world is so violent and it’ll never end until both sides can agree and get along
My son is suffering and in pain. Agonizing and anxiety overwhelms him. I’m frightened and hurt for him. I’ll always be here if he needs me.