I moved to Wilmington, NC from living in Dallas, TX for 58 years. The change was decided so I could be near my son and grand children. I’m a recovering alcoholic with Bipolar, ADD, and have been sober since April 2009.
After the last bit of luggage was laid inside the front door of my charming new cottage sudden loneliness set in. If you have been following me you would know that I have been taking care of my parents for two years who are 84 and both have Alzheimer’s. Before that I’d been living alone for more than 30 years since my divorce. During those years I was also living as a person with Bipolar, ADD, and a drinking problem called alcoholism.
This move was a dream of mine and it still is. I’ve just had some stumbles the last few days since I got here. Unfortunately, there’s a grocery store across the street that carries beer and wine. Not unfortunate for some, but for me it’s easy access for my addictions. I nust take it a day at a time.
I bought groceries on my first day and yes I bought a bottle of wine. I wish my son had said something like, “Mom do you think that’s a good thing to do.” He didn’t. I enjoyed the wine, but I did not enjoy the morning after as well as the next morning. Yes, two evenings in a roll. That’s going to have to change. Especially, with diabetes as well.
Drinking wine keeps me from doing the things I enjoy and that’s reading, writing, research, painting, and photography. That’s whole reason coming to the East Coast was to find my true self again. And I will. God made this dream come true so I don’t won’t to disappoint him. He spoke to me and said it was time to find out who I am. I had followed my intuition for the last two-years and Gods words to get here.
I must consider this as a set back and not be hard on myself. I’ll pick myself up and dust off the old memories and start anew. I was given this new chance and new life to spend it with my son and to be a grandma. It has been my dream for years. I have a 1 and 3 year who are loves of my life. I screwed upmy past life I’m not going to mess of mynew life. From this day on no drinking.
Not only is drinking bad for your liver it’s not good for Bipolar. That’s one of the reasons I drank – to stop the pain of Bipolar. I’ve learned that you need to deal with your Bipolar to become stronger.
Moving to Wilmington, NC is going to be my new life and new lifted spirit to learn who I am. I will be writing about my new life in a new blog coming soon. Also, I will be writing my results from weaning myself off Effexor, the worse drug I’ve ever taken. I’ve gone from 75 mg to 35 mg and next week I will taper down to 30 mg. If that’s too much I’ll change to 32 mg. Whatever it takes to get off this devilish pill I will do. That’s all need is to withdraw from Effexor and Wine at the same time. WOW! Put me in the Hospital!
My story on my new life will be coming soon to a new blog near you>>>